The lyrics, “I’ve been trying to keep up with all of these great expectations, so I keep on faking,” blasted through my headphones as I walked to class one morning after pulling an all-nighter writing an essay. At that moment, I understood Jon Bellion on a spiritual level. On a Friday at 8 AM I clearly saw “Morning In America.”
I can’t keep up with all these great expectations, and you probably can’t either.
I can’t even keep up with my own great expectations of having a 4.0 GPA, perfect body, amazing social life, and an overall successful college career. Again, these are just the expectations I place on myself, but I feel as though the entire world is just watching and waiting for me to screw it all up. That’s a lot of pressure that’s really just all inside of my head. As a result, I continue to workout until I’m so sore I can’t lift my arms and I have blisters on my heels the size of quarters. I continue to stress out way more than I should over essays and tests. I can only speak for myself, but I really don’t think I’m the only person caught up in the great expectations placed on college students today.
Perfection is seen as the ultimate goal, and that’s where we, as humans, fall short. It’s a never-ending cycle.
No one is ever going to be perfect, but we love the chase. I, like so many others, am obsessed with chasing perfection. I’m not stupid, though, and I know that perfection is unattainable, but that’s why I start faking. We drive ourselves mad in pursuit of something that doesn’t exist. We can’t keep up with the expectations inside of our minds.
“We’re secretly out of control, nobody says it
When the class president overdosed, we all pretended
It was rare, it was shocking and all the town was talking
Yeah, we’re secretly out of control and everyone knows”
While we all may feel hopeless trying to achieving perfection, everyone knows that perfect people are happy.
Too bad there’s no such thing as a perfect person. The reason that so many people are unhappy is that they are so consumed with faking happiness and pretending to have it all together. Like Jon Bellion says, we’re secretly out of control. No one sees when someone is falling apart. No one knows when someone is hurting. No one realizes when someone is seriously depressed because everyone is faking.
It seems like the whole world is just putting on a big show and when something happens that brings us to reality, it’s completely and utterly shocking.
This is why we, as outsiders, never see suicide coming. So many things go unnoticed because someone wanted them to go unnoticed, and that’s a problem.
Don’t be secretly out of control. Go tell someone.